Friday, April 29, 2011

Easy go person

Being single for 1 month long already......
I am still non-stop exploring my weaknesses
I stop all my emotional action and more focusing on my future planing

After break up i still the same, non-stop thinking of you
Even sometime will have someone admiring on me....
But it don really meanings much to me

I felt i am no more confident to relationship sometime
Because i really feel i am a useless person sometime
Everyone said i am good, but i fail to hold this relationship well

I do so to get knowing more different type of people and learn how the way to view to a relationship
and i explored a type of person that i knew before but i never take serious on it before
A case story: some of the people they will break up in the relationship by giving a reason that because of he/she wanna to doing more focus on his/her studies.

yeah....it is true.... that is humanity and reality world, just i never accepting that only
I am not a easy going person that can simply give something and not caring about others people feelings
My character is too much concern on everything, my perfection, my discussion, my way of thinking

After all i did, i get nothing and nothing more then a lesson
A lesson that i will remember and keep in my heart forever
"要学会爱自己多过爱别人" he said

Friday, April 15, 2011

Perfect

I still remember that you said "it is not everyday is that perfect as you think"
yes.... i maybe not the perfect person
but no one of the human are made in perfect
in a Relationship it is still the same, no one relationship has ever made in perfect also

should you tell me you not loving me anymore ??
or because i am not a prefect person to be with you ??
just tell what i can do for keeping this relationship go on ??
for the relationship i can do everything for it ??

i just wish to know the real reason
i just need a chance from you
i just wish i still have a chance to change
i just wish we could still same like last time

i looking at the mirror and blaming to my self
why i am so sucks ??
why i am so useless ???
why i am losing you ??
why i am changing so much ??

every time i think of you i just feel pain
but still cant event stop thinking of you
i am still wishing you will come back to me
back to me.......

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

独念的日记

独自一个人,在看看我们的日记
我们走过的痕迹,留下的回忆
如此的甜蜜,如此的美好

爱情里,让人又爱又痛
我在笑着,心在痛着
和以前一样,依然伪装着“我没事的”模样

终于我放下了我的大背包
终于放下了过去的身份
终于不需要吊高自己来卖

我把以前的门关上了
打开了一个新的门
让自己看看外面的世界

你给的分手理由,我天天都在读着
我明白了,是我以前的个人因素
你得不到安全感和信心

我把我的长发剪了
做个普普通通的人
不要再让爱我的人担心我了

我会学会谦虚做人
不再是好胜的心态
简单就好

单身也是好的,不要在痛了
多希望你是我最后
我要用行动来改变未来的一切
不要在心痛了~

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

梦想,只是梦想
没有真实的力量
没有人会知道明天会怎样
没有人会知道命运会怎样

很可怕的,我输给了自己
很可怕的,我也认输了
从今以后,我不会在说我是一名歌手
从今以后,我要活出自我得会我的自由

我觉得我很对不起很多的人
辜负了大家对我的期望
我真的放弃了,这打击对我来说太大了
我会把我的才华令用在其他的地方

我不会觉得可惜的
因为我不想在事情重演
失去家人的感觉
我爱你如我爱我的家人一样

第一个星期

一个人的走着。。。。。
一个人望着天。。。。。
静静的听风的声音。。。
慢慢的呼吸着回忆。。。

一个人的生活。。。。。
一个人的思想。。。。。
没有什么特别的。。。。
只是特别的想你。。。。

我的爱对你是没有结束过,
只是我还是不愿意接受,
我们已经分手了一个星期,
多希望这只是一场恶梦。

我爱你,没有变。。。